Hopes; Shattered.

1st of all, sorry for not posting new blog recently.
The reason is, my life just got more fucked!
When i thought i'm about to stand on my own two feet again, i got a whole load of shit crashing on me and in no time i'm on my freaking knees again. The shits that happens recently is so embarrassing i wont be posting here at the moment. And don't worry, i didn't get any girls pregnant and it's not about me. It's more of a family thing. =.=

Sigh... I don't know what the HELL is going on in my family that lead into this. This truly a tragic moment of our life. I dunno to get angry, or just stay quiet about it. I feel like ignoring that particular person but i didn't have a heart to do it. Feel like shouting and cursing that person my lungs out also no use. Someone tell me to calm down and don't do anything to rational. People do stupid stuff when they are angry. So i took that advise, and i calm the fuck down. From the moment i know the truth bout the shit, i straight away declare myself unrelated to that person. I'm ashamed of what that person done to our family.

I don't care what that person think since that person is already so called "made up their mind" bout the shit. I try not to get pissed, but every time i look at that person face, i feel like cursing that person and just go berserk on that person. But someone say no, just let it through and we see how it goes after Hari Raya. That's like a fucking 1 month away! We really need to think of something to stop all this madness and ridiculousness A.S.A.P.

I can't sleep properly, can't think properly and the only way to de-stress is to play games. Even that people thinks i'm as per normal. They don't know what's inside my mind and why i behave such an ass hole to some of them.
To u guys, i'm sorry. I'm to stressed out in this problems. And lastly, if u dun get whatever i just wrote i don't mind, coz i didn't specifically state my problem and just left some more question mark on ur head.

OK, i think i need more cigarette to smoke to so called "Realease" the problems.
~PS: I hate you GOD for doing this.