After a long absent...

Fucking long time since i write in.. Things had been really hectic this past few months. I don't really have nothing much to say. Stuff happen as always... Good and bad. More bad than good anyway lol.

Frustration; OVERLOADING!

Hah! Just saw a friend's blog and now i decided to make a come back after a (very) long absent.
So far, no happy thoughts for me, just the plain same old same old you know what. The thing that keeps me going to be honest is just Maple Story. You know why i seek refuge in an online game? Not because imma geek or something, it's just simple fun (Tho it's getting boring), you have alot of friends there to talk to that you never really meet before. it's like talking to someone behind a curtain or a blind. Enough of that.

I'm very unhappy lately coz of this stupid bills keep on coming and coming which is under my name, but not me who use it. I just lend my name for someone in order to get a cellphone line. I'm being nice (Not naive) to help her, and now end up piling over $500 in usage that she didn't pay. GOD DAMN IT! It's so frustrating. Try to text her, she never fucking reply me. try to call her also no use coz she won't pick up because of bad history. Fuck, I now owe 3 Telco company over $3000 of usage which only 1 of it was my fault. Sigh.... Enough of that also.

Family... it is the one you can relate to in time of need and despair. I totally didn't see that. It is now a huge crack which the gap is getting bigger every day. if only i can use the wall plaster to cover it up. Why is this even happening? You told us to preach to be a good and useful person but u on the other hand is the opposite. Sigh i really got no words to describe it. It's sad and pathetic. On to the next topic...

Friends. They are your so call siblings that you choose to be with. Where's mine? You can say I lost all (almost) my friends to this certain person. The real friend i have right now is either busy or just trying to avoid me. Dunno what the hell i ever do to her. =.="

Whatever... I just need to focus on my own well being better than thinking of all that shits.
Now it's all gotten out of my head and to this post, i can try to get some sleep.

Take care folks.~

Welcoming A New Member of Our Family...

Here is our new Family Member! And we still need a name for it.. Any suggestion is welcome and drop it on the chatbox on the right. ^^

Fucking Prick

I really hate what happened today. I hate it when cat and dog are fighting.. coz it seems never end..

Of coz i'm not talking bout cats and dogs literally but what happened today exactly can relate that.

I nearly lost my patience back then, feel like just punching them both sia.. Enough is Enough already... Cant we jus get along? Do you think we all like see you guys fight? You think this is some kind of an entertainment for us? FUCK NO! I don't give a shit bout what ever you think of, jus don't do this infront of my youngest bro.. don't u guys have dignity or shame?

And yeah, i know u might read this so i wanna tell u this. GROW THE FUCK UP! Why is it u all must drag old stories into this shit, u do this u do that, u nvr do this, u nvr do that. arghhh! If u wish to leave us just fucking leave us. and just fuck off to that prick off yours... FUCK OFF! I will be emailing that prick myself for him to leave the fuck out of our fucking life.. dont tempt me on doing it!

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Blog official Pictures

Blog Official Picture 1.

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I will update soon.. right now, my head is in a freakin mess so cant update that much.

Adios...

Stupid Quote! Damn you!

Life's not worth it when you're not living it.

I regret reading that quote... Now i feel all sorry ass with myself again. Really, i just could wish that i can live my life. My life is dull like a freakin butter knife. I wanna enjoy life, wanna go out, make some trouble and stuff. My life last time is much much more better then what it is now. Now it's just problem after another problem and this is making me all choked up. I just wish that my life, or our family life can be back as before. Words can't explain how i feel now. Never mind, I'm slowly losing my memory so i rather let it go away as time pass by.

Crap, i guess this is the end of my private time alone now that everyone has woken up. so, gotta go!

Haunting Past/Police Investigation

My heart, it now aching because of ghostly past figure is haunting me back.

It's my fault i got this heartache. Stupid me, i shouldn't be doing what i wasn't suppose to do. Now, it's haunting me back and making me more stress. To me, this is just a small history that I might forget in a few days, but it was still a huge part of my past... Let this be a lesson for me not to toy with memories...

Yesterday afternoon Two plain clothes Policemen came over to my house to talk to two of my younger siblings. They (Police) suspect them (My kid bros) of something which I'm not gonna tell here. They question them, take pictures and information of them. This kinda bug me coz, i know my brothers all to well and i don't think they do what the Police suspect them of doing. It's just to absurd. The Police say they got witness and they point that my two brother is the suspect among Eight other suspects. I don't know either to laugh or to be pissed at the witness saying my bros did the deed on them. Gosh, I'm going bonkers again. Thankfully the Policemen only questioned them and didn't charge them coz they assist the Police for the On-going investigation.

This matter nearly make my parent (especially my dad) more stressed up, thankfully it's nothing, so he didn't have to worry much.

As for me now, I have been having this powerful headache on and off for nearly 6 fucking day, I have stop smoking temporarily for 3 days now to see whether there's any change. So far the chest/lung pain has relieved abit but the headache still there.

Ok, this is the part I say Sayonara to my readers and Imma go and get high with Panadol... HAHA! *cough*

Have a great or at least a better day then me.. haha! Chow!