The Nightmare that came true...

What i've been fearing the most came true... Why such bad luck keeps on coming? Why is it the big guy up there hates us so much? Gosh... im really beginning to lose my mind. I tried to be optimistic about all this but it failed,it only worked for a few days until more fuck up came knocking on my miserable life. GOD, have mercy on our soul la... dun do things like this to us... I dunno who to blame, who to throw my tantrums at... i just keep it inside. and it slowly eating me from the inside. Maybe in a few month if this thing keeps on going, i might lose my sanity.. who knows? Sigh... GOD! PLEASE JUST LIFT THIS BURDEN THAT IS SET UPON US! PLEASE! I only can handle it jus a little bit more. More then that i dunno what will happens to me. T_T